written on April 25, 2013
Sometimes, I feel so alone. Sometimes I wish that someone is there for me so that I cannot be alone. But the moment that I know you, I thought that my life was amazing. At first, i used to like teasing you and even looking forward to argue with you. I wish to be one of your friends and i am such a fool to even think that you are younger than me. But as days by that we have spent together, I learn many things about you. I even observed how the way you treat and talk with our other girls classmates. You talk with them differently. when I asked you, you reply in a very un-interisting tone or just nod at me when you agree or shake your head when you disagree. How I really despise and hate that kind of attitude!You are making me feel that I am not important to you at all. You are making me feel worthless. I have so many questions because of your sudden behavior towards me. I want to asked you but I could not found any strength to ask you. Then, answer hit me like a stone surprisingly! One of my friend that become also one of your friend told me that you confessed to him that you had a crush on me. that time, I feel butterflies on my stomach and my smile reach through heaven. Our classmates started teasing us, and that made me avoided you because I was too shy.
I cannot find any more reasons to get close to you. I know I hurted your feelings, I can simply observe it through your emotions. I eventually started hating you. I like as my friend only because you seem so good as a friend. I even become angry to my friend who told me that you like me. I want us to be back the way we are before. I miss the way you are before, the way we treat each other before. I miss the way you tease you and made you angry by my simple pranks. I really, really miss the old you. I wish the small moments we had. I know, I will never had the guts to tell you this, please turn yourself the way we are before. I always caught you staring at me, and I just ignore it. I am so innocent and so naive. And I know, I am not the right girl for you. I always that, you will forget all your feelings toward me. I want you treat me as your friend only. I know that you already know that I am not the kind of girl who will try everything to capture a man’s attention. I stay simple so that no one will recognize me. I do not know the reason of you liking me. I know you will be mad if you know this two things. First, when you actually stare at me I always thought that I am not the one you are staring even though it is already obvious since our classmate notices it also. I always thought that you are staring a the girl sitting next to me. second, I always thought that you are younger than me. I treat you just like a little brother to me. I know it is unforgivable, since you are three years or more older than me. I always bear this in my mind so that I will not be falling in love to you in return. Forgive me but I want to say faithful to my known future. I know some day he will knock at my door and I want him to be the love of my life forever. Before I end this, I do not want to ask you for anymore except this, Please be my friend again. We are better off as friends not lover.
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