The GiftMandie Meyers June 20, 2005 English 101 After what seemed like an eternity of rigorous tests and dealing with the painful longing of wanting to hold a precious baby of my own in my arms, it happened; my dreams at long last came true. I was pregnant! But something happened; I felt my world come crashing down. The thought of bringing another life into this world terrified me. After marriage, my husband and I immediately wanted to start a family. A year or so went by and still nothing, no baby. I decided to check myself out to see if anything was wrong.
I went through all the normal tests to see if there were any problems. The doctors couldn’t find any concrete explanation why I wasn’t able to conceive. As a last resource, before getting into more invasive measures, my doctor wanted me to try a fertility pill called Clomid. Figuring I didn’t have anything to loose, I started taking the pills. A few months after taking Clomid, I realized I was feeling a bit strange.
I was more tired then I normally felt. I decided to take a pregnancy test. Assuming I was going to get the same negative result, I take the test, walk away and gather my thoughts. Hoping and praying for a different outcome that I had become accustomed to. I walked back to read the results. Expecting to see a negative test, I stare at the test in disbelief.
Two pink lines! I blink my eyes to make sure I am not seeing things, it was true. A positive pregnancy test, something I have never seen before. Saying I was happy was an understatement. Ten minutes later I was combing through my address book calling everyone from my realtor to my sixth grade teacher. As quickly as the pure joy filled my body, pure fear took over me. I was petrified.
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All these questions filled my head. Will I be a good mom? Can I put another persons needs before mine? Am I capable of giving a baby all the love and affection it requires? And what about my body, getting fat and stretch marks. How is my husband going to handle his newly shaped wife? My life had changed before my very eyes. No more shopping sprees, no more going out on dates with my husband. I was terrified. Life as I knew it would change.
After everything I went through to be where I am right now, why was I feeling this way? After Almost nine months of an emotional roller coaster ride, it was time. There was no turning back now. My impatient baby decided she wanted to make her entry into this world three weeks before she was supposed to. Once again I am consumed with fear, fear of the unknown. As the doctor placed my beautiful baby girl in my arms my life had a whole new meaning. It was a feeling I could never express in words.
I was a mommy. My fears were gone. In an instance I felt my selfishness lift from my body and fill with a love that I had never felt before. I felt as if I was a mama bear protecting her cub. I knew I would have no problem loving this baby more then I love myself, it came natural. The price I had paid through the trials of getting pregnant, the fears of being a good mother and the stretch marks that scarred my body would be of small payment.
Small payment indeed, for the beautiful warm bundle of joy god blessed me with. My life immediately became of less value to me; I would give it up in a minute to save my baby, but at the same time hope for more years, not to accomplish my own dreams, but to see my children accomplish theirs.
