My life has been full of choices and experiences. I have learned from each of them, and try to look at everything I experience in a positive way. I’m a twin so all my life I’ve had a best friend right by my side. We had our arguments but we never let anything come between us. My sister and I didn’t have the same plans after high school. I wasn’t sure what it was going to be like without her there every step of the way.
Having a twin is like having a best friend that’s always with you. We did everything together, from brushing our teeth in the morning to eating dinner at night. We had our disagreements, just like any brothers or sisters would. But the relationship we have no one will ever come close too. I know that no matter where I am or what kind of trouble I am in she will be there no matter what. I never had to go anywhere or do anything alone. I had adjusted to this lifestyle over eighteen years of always having someone there and it was coming to an end quicker than I realized. I knew it would be good for both of us to get out on our own though. We needed to get out and experience things and grow as individuals, but I knew it was going to take some getting used to.
After I graduated from high school I decided to live at home and go to a community college about twenty minutes away. My sister was about an hour away at NTU. At first, it wasn’t so bad. I was busy with school and work, and trying to adjust to new things and a new schedule. On the first day it was weird not riding and walking in with her. When I got in the classroom everyone just stared, when before I would get the reaction, “Omg, are ya’ll twins?” It was an automatic ice breaker, or an easy way to start a conversation with someone. It wasn’t like that this time; it was just me and my books. But after about a month, the new wore off and it really started to hit me. I wasn’t doing anything in my free time when I had it because I didn’t have anyone to go with me. Before I was so outgoing but now I didn’t want to do anything. This wasn’t me and I knew it. I was still the same person but my sister wasn’t by my side.
Innocence The one thing that separates a child from an adult is innocence. Children are the virgins of life, having never known, heard, or seen evil. They haven't faced heartbreak, rejection, and the other daily pressures of living in society. Some don't quite understand the logic behind death. This is innocence, the beautiful and rare accessory piece that I had longed to hold on to in life. I ...
I broke out of my shell a little bit and started opening up to people. I started making the conversation with people instead of waiting on them to start it. I knew I had to look at it in a positive way. So the easiest solution was to stop being so shy. I can go anywhere now and make a new friend. At work or school I would start a conversation with anyone that wanted to talk. I got to meet a lot of neat people and hear some really cool stories. This was such a great experience for me. As much as I hated not having my sister there to talk to everyday, I grew as an individual.
What I learned most from this experience is live life everyday to the fullest. I don’t know when my time here is up. I do know as long as I’m here I want to do what makes me happy, and live and learn as much as I can.