You- I find myself sitting here wondering why… Why am I so lost? Why do you not know what you want? Why do I still care? And most of all, Why I can’t I stop loving you? I sit here drying my pink puffy eyes. Trying to get you out of my head but everything is a constant reminder like a broken record, over and over again. I try to pretend it doesn’t get to me while, secretly, I beat my self up inside. It is a boxing match between my head and my heart and in the end it is always me that ends up getting hurt. I put my everything into you, my heart, my soul, my dreams, you were my EVERYTHING…
everything for a boy. How could I have been so foolish? -You are not worth anything yet I gave you everything. A boy who I will never stop loving. Love a utopia of emotions.
I cannot escape from or even want to try. You are like a book I don’t want to put down even though the story is over. Each page calls out my name. I think about all the characteristics of love. Love is patient, Love is kind… and I ask myself if you ever truly loved me or if it was one big lie.
I know you still care; I can see it in your eyes. They are clear as glass, when it comes to emotion. Emotion a flood washing away all truth, like you did to me. So I will grow and realize love is foolish but for now I just want it back.
— Me.
