Dear Frank, You have made the biggest difference in my life in so many ways. Ever since my mother died, I have had a tough time getting along with things. You helped me liberate myself, from all the troubles that I know of. How you help me from day to day is priceless and I want you to never forget how much I care about you. You know that our relationship has been stressed on a little because of my father’s relentless attempt to put an end to it. I want you to remember that we did continue to see each other because we know that he is wrong for trying to keep us apart and that we do mean a lot to each other.
When we decided together to go away and leave everything we know of behind, I felt a bit nostalgic of the idea. I know that I am supposed to be there with you now, but I couldn’t come and I want to explain myself. This whole idea of getting married and moving away came quite quick. You are usually always sailing everywhere, and don’t have too much care for responsibility. Now you want to settle down right away, which befuddles me. I know you want to be with me and mean good, and I the same, but there are other things I must think of in all of this.
Another possible problem is your tendency to spend all your money in one shot. We have to learn together to grow and be more responsible if we are to make a big change like getting married, not to mention moving away. You know that when my mom died I promised her I would look after the family and keep up the house. I found that fulfilling my promise to her wasn’t as easy as it may have seemed. Not to mention how my dad is, which doesn’t make anything that much easier. There are other reasons I decided to stay for a little longer as well.
These reasons are being of family, commitment, and respect. I also have a commitment to you that I am aware of, but cannot put as a priority over my family and respect of my mother right now. I am trying to mend things with my dad, and make everything better. I tried to make it clear to him that he must change his ways so he doesn’t lose me and I don’t lose him. I also don’t want to lose you, which I hope won’t happen. My dad sometimes as you know gets a little abusive, with words towards me and physically towards my brothers.
This is one of the main reasons that I did not come by you, so I can try to change that. I have a responsibility to take care of my family; I know my dad should be doing that, but a promise is a promise, and I promised my mom I would. We both know that my life is a little complicated at the current time, and I have to straighten out some things before I make my final decision whether to join you or not. For now, good luck on your new venture over there and I hope to see you soon. Yours Truly, Eveline.
