Love? What is that, I often find myself wondering? About ten years ago I would have said its when a prince comes in his bright and shining armor to rescue a damsel in distress. He would pick her up on his white horse and carry her into the sunset to his castle where theyd marry and live happily ever after. I used to believe that is what love consisted of. Complete and utter happiness. But, unfortunately I had to grow up and I then of course stopped believing. Then through my life I saw how love ripped apart peoples hearts and lives.
It couldnt be that bad could it? Wrong. It was shocking to see how many of my parents friends got divorced but they did eventually recover and just as quickly would get married again. It all seemed like such a game to them. Especially to men. There must have been something missing in their relationships as either the wife or the husband would cheat on their partner. How, if you were completely devoted to someone, could one do that? Love disappointed me.
It was nothing like I had pictured it. There was nothing really great about it. I slowly but surely started to despise the word love. What was the point in it? It seemed to be only a feeling in which people completely lost their minds and acted in strange ways. People were always so happy, of course. That was great but after a while something would go wrong and they would be heartbroken.
... think he might be obsessive because he says he loves people so much and maybe he didn't want to ... because just a few lines before he says he loves people to much. Then why would their child be better ... not being their during his younger years. He loves people so much but it bothers him that he didn ... means high. Then he talks about how he simply loves people to much. This all goes back to his father ...
I always found myself wondering why people wanted to put themselves through the despondency of something not working out in the relationship over and over again. There are very rarely relationships which do actually last. Couples are head over heels in love with one another but flaws in the marriage would begin to appear. It causes so much pain, and most of the time there are children involved. Seeing their parents divorce, scars them for the rest of their lives. Most of the time no one realizes that, not even the child until it comes to him or her dating.
They cant seem to commit. Is it the fear that they will end up like their parents?? This is how I feel about love. What good comes out of it? I promised myself a year ago I would not fall in love. I was too scared to take the risk of getting hurt. I know, its life but I couldnt bear the thought of my whole world revolving in some way around a person. I wanted to be able to be in control of my life and not have someone on my mind the whole time.
Clearly you can see I am completely against love. If that is how I feel then why, when I think about you, do I find myself battling to breath? Why, when I hear your voice, does my heart skip a beat? Why, when I think of what weve done together, can I not stop smiling? Why, when Im not with you, can I not seem to concentrate on anything and why can I then not stop crying?? Why does anything that has to do with love remind me of you?? And why do I love the thought of spending the rest of my life with you? It has happened to me, I realized. Exactly what I imagined love to be when I was younger is how I feel. You are my prince and you have stolen my whole heart. How am I supposed to live without a heart? How am I supposed to live without you? Its happened to me Im in love..