Peace, something I have searched for within myself, other people, and substances. I have
had peace in my life don’t get me wrong, but never in a sustainable and healthy way.
Throughout my life I have found many things that bring me peace, but the peace always find a
way out of my life. It seems like a never ending search to me, but I keep on keeping on..
I used to find peace with in my family, at least untill my parents got divorced.
Unfortunately they got divorced when I was five so that peace was not longed lived. From the
time of the divorce untill I was eighteen I moved at least fifteen times never staying in one place
for more then a year until fifth grade. I had a big family living together back then consisting of
me, my mom, two brothers, three uncles, my grandma, and grandpa. With all of us living
together there was rarely a peaceful second let alone a peaceful time. It seems like everyone was
always mad at someone else and we were always fighting. We had to many people with too
many problems forpeace to be found in anything.
Amid my search for peace I found drugs. Drugs never let me down, they never left me,
and they never fought with me they made me happy plain and simple. I could have gotten shot
while I was on drugs and been completely happy with it. It took a friend committing suicide
The Essay on Paper About Life Time Mother Times
The Longman dictionary of American English defines life as, the force that enables us to continue. Life in my eyes is the interval of time between birth and death. Throughout life you will be placed in situations, and put to the test of time. There will be times when you are joyous, and times when you are sorrowful. This is the period of trial and tribulation. Face the fact life is hard. Being an ...
under the influence, a best friend overdosing and passing away, 2 other best friends overdosing
and living, watching my mom continuously fighting prescription drug addiction, and me getting
arrested for drugs and put on probation to realize drugs were not worth it. I was wrong about
drugs the peace they brought me only lasted as long as the drugs were in my system. Needless to
say I quit doing drugs and I do not miss the fake peace they brought me.
I looked for peace in my past relationships with my girlfriends always let down with the
fact that it never lasts. I can always find the peace that I’m looking for in the beginning. We get
along everything goes great for the first couple of months. Eventually though I either get lied to
or cheated on, and when that happens I do not forgive easily. The peace that we did have, and
that I enjoyed so much slowly deteriorates, and turns into fighting and stress. Then we break up
and the whole agonizing processof starting over begins.
Finding peace for myself is like guess and check I just keep on making the wrong guesses.
I know amongst one of those guesses that something or someone that is capable of sustaining
peace for me will come along or ill have to find a way on my own, either way ill find it.
Until that day I’m going to have to keep on keeping on.
