Rewrite of Novel Ending for I Am the Cheese
TAPE OZK015 2218 date deleted T-A
A: I saw light. Light that I’ve never seen before. Inviting light. Warm light. I could feel my body pull towards it. Then I saw them.
T: Saw who?
A: My parents.
He really could see his parents. They were clear as day. They were in the light, and he was drawn to them. His father looked happy, and so did his mother. Something he hadn’t seen in awhile. As he drew closer to them, they spoke to him.
“Adam,” his father said, “you must go back.” He shot a puzzled look at his mother and she only nodded.
“I must go back?” he said, “go back where?”
His mother spoke. “Back to where you belong, Adam.” He could smell her lilac perfume and he was comforted. He didn’t know what she meant, and he didn’t know where he was, but at the same time, he did. He just didn’t want to believe it.
“I can’t go back now, I’m already here,” he said. He didn’t want to leave the light, the warmth. He wanted to sit in his mother’s lap and feel secure, just like he did when he was little.
“It’s not your time,” his father said, “your life is unfinished, and you must go back.” He was motioning Adam to go back the way he came.
... with it ever again. After hearing the stories my mother and my father have preached to me, I think I had it ... influential people in my life were my parents. My mother and my father are very different. From the way they grew up ... way. My mother also had stories about her youth, but they didn't start in the same manner as my father's. Actually ...
He began to walk backwards, his eyes fixed on his parents. He understood why he must go back, even though he didn’t want to leave the comfort of his parent’s presence. His mother blew a kiss to him and waved.
“Until we meet again, darling,” she said as they faded into the light.
T: Where were you? Why did you see them?
A: Must you ask that? You know where I was, and why I saw them.
T: I’m only trying to help you unlock the details.
A: The crash. It was the crash. I had a near death experience and saw my parents. My parents that were dead. It’s the only logical explanation.
T: Are you sure that’s what happened?
A: Of course. I remember coming back and feeling the rough pavement against my cheek. It’s all returning to me now! I finally get it! I only came back because my parents told me it wasn’t my time to die.
T: Is there anything else you remember? Anything else you would like to discuss?
A: No. Everything I remember just ended there. I can’t remember anything else, there’s nothing else to remember.
T: Can’t you remember? Or is it that you don’t want to remember.
A: I just can’t remember anything else. My heads starting to hurt again, I feel like I’m going to pass out. But there is one more person I remember. A person I remember as I returned.
T: And who was that?
T: Who? Who?
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The darkness begins to fade. I open my eyes and everything’s blurry. After a few seconds, my vision adjusts itself. I realize I’m staring up at a white tiled ceiling. I hear a constant beeping sound. I wonder where I am, and how I got here. I see a face lean over me.
“Excellent. You’re coming to…again,” he murmurs. I see that he’s a big man with white hair and a black mustache. I find it hard to speak, but force the words out anyway.
“Where am I?” I ask him as I struggle to move. He helps me sit up and he sighs.
“You’re in the hospital. You’ve been slipping in and out of a coma for 3 years. You ask me the same questions every single time you wake,” he said. I can’t believe what I’m hearing. I just saw my parents a few days ago! Or did I? My body begins to ache and I feel the room spinning.
... in other cases it is the only way some parents feel that they can achieve any form of motivation toward ... Punishment were still used frequently and consistently. I remember when I was a Corporal in the United States ... me. Later on in the semester, I can remember only one time I had a problem with a ... has been a major controversy in schools for many years. At times it was supported and condoned, and ...
“Three years?” I scream. “Three years? This is impossible, you are lying to me! Where is my father! Where is he?” The doctor sighs and puts his hand on my shoulder.
“Paul, your father has been dead for three years, I’m sorry. He passed away in a car accident.” I look at him and wonder who he’s talking to. Who’s Paul? I’m not Paul. My name is Adam Farmer. I feel confusion mixed with rage. I grab the doctor’s arm and yell at him.
“Bring me my father!” The doctor seems to ignore me as he places Pokey the pig in my arms and injects something into my leg. I don’t know what he injected into me, but whatever it was, it made me feel numb. I begin to feel calmer as the doctor sings to me.
The cheese stands alone,
The cheese stands alone,
Heigh-ho, the merry-o,
The cheese stands alone.
I feel looser as each second passes. The doctor tells me everything is going to be alright. I wonder if my father actually is dead. It doesn’t matter to me right now. As I begin to slip back into unconsciousness I smile and nod. I realize who I am, who I was, and who I forever will be. I am the cheese.