Conflicting Desires within a Doctrine In the story, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, written by James Joyce, the main character Stephen Dedal us has many encounters with women. Women and sexuality are major influences on Stephens adolescent life. Another major factor that has an influence on Stephens life is the Church. Women and sexuality conflict with the Church and its beliefs, and that is one of Stephens major problems thus far. Stephen is having a very big identity crisis, from being a God fearing Catholic to a very hormonal teenager.
As Stephen sits at the “adults” dinner table for the first time, his father, Mr. Casey and Dante are fighting about religion and politics in Ireland. As they are arguing, Stephens train of thought leads him to think about Eileen. Eileen Vance was the little girl that Stephen wanted to marry when he was younger.
She is described to have ivory hands and golden hair, which confuses Stephen with the phrases, “Tower of Ivory” and “House of Gold” which is part of the Roman Catholic Litany of Our Lady. Later when Stephen is at school, he again thinks about Eileen. Stephen gets his first sensual experience from Eileen when she puts her hand into his pocket and touches his hand. Stephen gets quite confused with the terms of the Litany of Our Lady so he starts to associate the “Tower of Ivory” and “House of Gold” to Eileen. The way James Joyce describes the scene, “She had put her hand into his pocket where his hand was and he had felt how cool and thin and soft her hand was.” (43) gives the reader the idea that Stephen enjoyed the feeling. The only problem with Eileen was that she was a Protestant and Stephen was a Catholic.
Religion is a large worldwide subject. It is very important to some people, and not as important to others. However, religion is very important to me and it is a major part of my everyday life. Many people are confused about different religions. The catholic religion is confusing to some people. But if one were to look into the religion they would see it is not confusing, just not well understood. ...
Stephen also associates women with the Virgin Mary, who was the mother of Jesus Christ. He thinks women as pure, just as Mary was and since he already associated the “Tower of Ivory” and “House of Gold with Eileen, he assumes her to be like the Virgin. Another influence of women in Stephens life comes from the story “The Count of Monte Cristo” while reading this story, Stephen starts to fantasize about Mercedes. As he fantasizes, he tries to bring her to life through another girl, known as E. C… He has many sexual longings for E.
C. but can not understand and is frustrated by his feelings. Knowing that his thoughts and his actions “perhaps he had been masturbating” put him into mortal sin, Stephen is very burdened. Alas, Stephen is overwhelmed by his desires and ends up going to a prostitute. This prostitute is a mix of what he was looking for in a woman, the Mercedes characteristics “she came over to him and embraced him gaily and gravely her arms held him firmly to her” (101) and the motherly / pure characteristics ” she passed her tinkling hand through his hair, calling him a little rascal.” (101).
Although Stephen knows that he is sinning he wants to break away somehow from the good of nature and experience what it feels like to be fallen like Adam or Lucifer.
When Stephen hears the sermon by Father Arn all, he feels remorseful of his actions. He thinks that the sermon is totally focused on him. And from hearing this sermon, Stephen decides to change his ways back towards the church. He does such a good job of being “Holy” that he is asked to join the priesthood. But this makes him go on a surge of power hunger. He thinks of all the power and respect he will get if he joins the priesthood and of all the secrets that he will hear of women and girls.
This again makes him to think lustfully and makes him sin. He finally decides that instead of entering priesthood, or for that matter, even live a religious life, he would become an artist and free himself from the doctrines of religion. When Stephen makes this decision, another girl is influential in making this happen. Stephen sees a girl on the beach and he is taken by her physically beauty but also compares her to an “angel of mortal youth and beauty.” She was what all the girls before her were except more. This girl tells Stephen to go towards art and so that is how he finally decides to lead his life. Stephen has experienced many different feelings that were conflicting within him from his own desires to the doctrines of the Catholic Church.
A Portrait Of The Artist As AA Portrait Of The Artist As A Young Man Religion As Repression A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man: Religion as Repression Like his protagonist, James Joyce was an Irish Catholic. He was also sent to Clongowes Wood College to board and study as a young boy. In effect the story is in part an autobiography of Joyce's own life up to the age of twenty or so (Kershner ...
Through out his adolescent life was a roller-coaster of emotions of sexual desires and guilt of having those desires and confusion because of the guilty feelings. A lot of the confusion, stems from the absence of a strong recognition of his own self. He was always confused with his feelings and what he thought the church expected him to feel. However, in the end, he seems to have figured out what he wanted through another desire, so I wonder if he will actually achieve what he wants to or will he fail and become confused again. 351.